I have had a rough go round the last couple of weeks with the pain and with the personal things going on in my life. The last couple of days I have been getting ready for my trip to Florida, and today I am slowly working to finish the final touches and I got to thinking how much this pain has held me back from being the mom I used to be and want to be for my children, but a little joy came back to my life when my kids told me that today they would rather hang with mom today and teach me how to play the Xbox lol! So inspite of all my pain and all the worthlessness I have been feeling there is still joy in every trial we go through, we just have to keep positive and look for it in the little things.
I'm glad you found a little something to be happy about. I recently got a bunch of my little ponies (one of them died from mold when I was 5 years old) and I'm really happy about it even though it's mostly just silly.
Ferrtbandit, let you in on a little secret. I used to watch my little ponies when my daughter was so little and to this day I often catch myself watching it without her lol. I also watch the Disney channel! ( but I watch Disney with her) so not silly we all have a kids side to us.
See, I told you that you're not worthless.. I know the feeling. But to your children, you are Mom.. You couldn't possibly be worthless in their eyes. They look to you for so much. They may not comprehend the pain and anxiety but they see passed all that and just see their beautiful Mom. There is nothing BUT joy in that. I am so happy for you. You're in my prayers and I am happy you found that joy!! You deserve it. 💕🙏🏻🌺