So I used, at the behest (big word of the day yay) of my family and my doctors. After getting it down I felt AMAZING. My pain wasn't this ever present destructive force. The fog sucked though, I'm a writer so I like having a clear head. But when it wore off and I could feel the pain creeping back in slowly from one area to another, I honestly started crying and had to be held like a baby because I was so upset. Every new sharp pang as it wore off was a reminder that I have bad DNA and a broken body. I was so depressed the rest of the day.
Sorry to hear. I understand wanting a clear head. I partake to reduce pain & anxiety. It doesn't take the pain away completely, just helps take edge off, but that's just me. I know how difficult it is to accept our broken bodies. After 11 or so years, I'm still struggling to accept it all. You're perfect how you are, broken or not. Hugs!