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Midnight sun

Dec 03, 2015 10:44 PM

I hide,
I need a moment.
The silence screaming in my ears

There are so many changes.

The pale moon,
My midnight sun.
White walls all hold strong,
smothering me.
Thrashing and screaming
But no one hears.
Stuck inside
slowly
going
silent.
Silent air,
silent me,
silent care,
Silence is all I ever hear.

The taste of bitter hate,
That feeling of guilty weight.
Pushing me
further
down.

Dec 04, 2015 12:59 PM

WOW!! That is very strong and hard to know that you are feeling so badly. I wish things were different. I know that I've been where you are. It's sure not a happy place to be. I'm so very sorry and my heart is breaking for you. Know that your pain family is here, we care, we will always be here for you and THAT is definitely something that you can count on. Sending you love, {{Hugs}} and prayers.💕🙏🏻🌻

Dec 05, 2015 2:24 AM

Thank you Alwayz, I've come to rely on this community a lot lately yesterday the depression felt so crushing. I wrote this poem in grade 10 but it's always come to mind when I was feeling at my worst. Anytime I feel like I'm on top of it there's another wave that crashes down on me

Dec 05, 2015 3:11 AM

Well, know that we are here for you. If you need it, my hand is here, take it, my shoulders are here, cry on them, my arms are here to give you gentle {{{Hugs}}}, my heart is here to sympathize with you. You never have to worry about being alone or not being understood. Believe me, we get it and there will never be any judgement. It's sad because pain always causes more depression and anxiety. (Especially when it's constant and high level). Please, just remember to come here and get things off your chest. You'll feel better and not so alone. You're in my prayers. 🌻🙏🏻

Dec 06, 2015 8:53 PM

Birdiebabe, this is such raw and honest emotion. I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time. Losing our health and coming to accept & adjust to our new lifestyle takes time. Speaking only for myself, I have felt very angry, trying to rationalize why it was this way for me. Why did things have to go bad when everything was going so well? Why does it continue to grow and keep adding more challenges? It took me several years to come to the place I'm at now. But I still have bad "emotional" days, and I'm so thankful for this community. I hope you will stay grounded with us, let us help support you through. You are in my thoughts and prayers! (((Hugs))) 🙏🌼

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