I have never been a part of a community... Never had anyone with a chronic illness as a friend. I've been alone and ignore the symptoms living in denial. As my family members "forget" I'm sick. Which I hate even saying. I was labeled the"sick" child. But I've fought so hard to not have this disease define me. I've been so strong for myself relying on God alone to set me through. Honestly after reading some post I was moved to actual sobbing tears. It's important to have people going through it with you. So when you reach your tough patch you know you're not alone. I am the type of person to push Myself crawling, bleeding, guts oozing out, to the finish line before I admit I'm in unbearable pain and need a break or admit I can't anymore. God is so good! I am a suicide surviver and most of my family members still don't know. In the secret place of deep bottomless Pitt depression God saved me. From opening up the door on the highway and letting my body roll into on coming traffic or from being on vacation with my family at the top of a light house only hoping quietly to myself it was high enough to kill. We fight an unbelievably difficult battle but it isn't impossible. My old life was snatched away from me in high school I'm only 23. I'm still in denial and it may be the cause of reckless choices that hurt me more later but I am going to live my life! noo matter what(.) I have dreams and after traveling to 4 countries last year despite all my illnesses and pain I made it. I refuse to lye down and give up like the enemy wants me too. I was given this life to do something with.limitations or not failing kidneys, meds, debilitating excruciating pain flares or not I'm going to finish my fight you better believe that! I've come too far to throw in the towel now. So thank you community I don't say much but I do read. Keeping pushing keep fighting
You are worth more than you know.