So I just spoke w/ my dad and he opened up about his struggles with back pain (Ibefore I thought his back hurt from being overweight and sitting too much) and told me his own dad had a bad back as well! For the first time in my life my parents acknowledge my pain (finally after four years) and don't think I'm over dramatizing and faking it for attention. I finally have full support and sympathy from them.
So yeah apparently I can't do anything to fix my back.. all I can do is try to ease the pain:/ we're searching for a good chiropractor in my area atm to see if it helps.
On one hand this sucks 'cause the reality is that I'm only 18 and paralyzed daily because the pain is too overwhelming and I'll probably get even worse as I age..
But on the other hand I don't have false hope anymore, I'm realistic. I can focus on finding the best pain meds etc for me.
I still haven't accepted this pain but I guess I need to.. this is my life now.. it revolves around pain. I'm bitter at the moment but I guess that just means that I'm not ready to give up either. I need to make adjustments and be okay with it.
So yeah.. sorry for the long message! Any of you have some wise words for me?? I kind of need them 😣