There are so many wonderful people on here everyday that my heart goes out to, most deal with so much pain and everything that comes along with it. I am blessed in many ways yet there are days that the surmounting issues overwhelm and discourage me. I'm in the throes of severe anxiety pushing into hypertension and facing financial collapse on top of the work injury, pain, spasms, batshit crazy employer, a specialist who is tapering my pain meds due to signing a pain med contract for Majoris...etc... BUT, I'm trying hard to breath and see good stuff... Soooo.... Today my positive mojo is being thankful for the pretty spring flowers popping up in the yard and the feeling and sound of the gentle forest breeze brushing through the tall firs... Ahhhhh breath.
Oregon it is a beautiful day hear also, and I understand about woring about everything going on in everyone's lives is enough to drive us all crazy. Sometimes I think maybe I should check my self in @ the Rusk State Hospital. I have been outside this morning in my flower bed trying to add more dirt to keep it from standing in water and drowning all my flowers.
OregonHS, I'm so glad you have the beautiful flowers and breeze to take your mind away, even for a little while. Its raining here and its expected every day this week, but I'm thankful for the rain; its keeps the pollen down. I understand the struggles too. We've had to readjust and scale down our budget & TV and internet twice, and then some. We use to shop top dollar retail, now were all budget. But I stay as positive as I can, and I treasure the people I've met on here. I hope & pray you'll have more days like today, and that God blesses you (& everyone here) in unexpected ways! 🙏🌼
Never been in a great financial place but yesterday a little man in a little white car walked to the door and handed my 16 yr old daughter a letter... From the mortgage company... Not foreclosure, at least an offer to work with us but I still can't look at it.... Anyway, my anxiety went astrof%#!!nomical and I am still experiencing chest pain and crazy wild heart rate... I just want a ticket outta country! But at the moment I hear birds chirping as the breeze I enjoyed earlier has turned to chilling gusts. That's okay though, I can put on a sweatshirt and enjoy it once the lorazapam kicks in☀️🌀
Flappsy ,I wish I could send you some of our sunshine today,it's supposed to start raining here this evening and go all week . Oregon I'm sorry that you are so upset about that letter, I hope that it's not as bad as you fear, at least they are willing to work with y'all. It will be 2 yrs ago that we were forced to downsize from a 3 bedroom,2 bathroom double wide to a one room cabin 14 x 32 ft., with a loft and front porch.It has been an experience,in togetherness,and what is important and not.I have a kichen,bathroom,and a shower. I have folding panels for privacy and they work pretty good. It's amazing what we can adapt to. I never thought that I could live in a house this small. I belive that we have all gotten closer as a family. We will have this paid for in one more yr.
Weezie, I'm actually enjoying the rain. Its like waves at the beach, or a fireplace in the mountains.
OregonHS, I wish there was a way I could help you. My husband and I were coming to a stop sign, and there sat a homeless man, with his head down (holding a sign, begging for help). I told my husband to give him a few dollars if he had it. He said he didn't have any cash so I opened my wallet and took out what I had, $5. We stopped and the man struggled to get up. When he reached for the cash we noticed he was missing the fingers on his right hand. He was wearing a fatigue ball cap, so we're wondering if he's a Vet. If so its just another example of how our govt fails our Vets. Anyway, sorry I got off track. What I'm saying by sharing that is this... We can't all do everything but a little here, a little there, its how I try helping others. I will pray God shows you a way through all this. It's got to be devastating to think you're losing your home. And I pray it won't come to that! But Weezie is right in that sometimes through our trials & struggles we figure out what is most important. Due to our financial struggles & changes we focus strictly on meeting our needs. And I can identify easily what doesn't meet that now, after the last 4+ years. Its the hardest, tightest living we've ever done. May God bless you with a resolution, and if possible a way to keep the home you have! 🙏🌼
Flappys, your generosity is a blessing and that is one thing that truly brings me joy unmatched is helping others. In the job I have done for the past 13 years I worked with many families in turmoil, whether it was drug addiction, children with various learning abilities, children being removed from homes or other unfortunate circumstances.... It calms me to comfort others. As often as possible I give food out my car window to homeless individuals standing with signs. I only wish it COULD be more often. And Weez, Thank you for reminding me what is truly important and maybe you and I can combine energy and get that Sunshine to Flappys! 🌄
I'll probably need some sunshine by Thursday. I've felt as dreary this afternoon as the whole day has been. Its supposed to rain more each day through Wednesday, then taper off by next Sunday. They said earlier we could get over 5" rain in spots. I wish we had a way to send it to the CA crops.
Oregon, You have a fantastic attitude. I wish I had the strength at this time to be that positive. I, too, suffer from horrible anxiety and in the last couple of months have been diagnosed with two other problems which I posted (I think). I have really bad TMJ and Costochondritis. They have caused me horrible pain and hearing loss, etc. I have to say that I didn't realize how much I need all of you here in our community to talk to, to lean on and to laugh/cry with, etc... Like I said, I have been having trouble getting onto the app and it just keeps saying it's syncing but never stops. It's stuck at 16%. On my laptop, I just had to pay to get the complete app so I could make an accurate pain chart. If any of you can tell me how to copy my avitar's coloration to the next pain chart I make, it would be helpful. On a laptop with no mouse, no touchscreen and shaky hands, I am having a hard time getting it to come out correctly. At any rate, I hope that the Spring brings renewed hope to everyone and that we all start to feel better (at least mentally with the sunshine, blue skies and warmer weather). I'm currently trying to read through all the posts I have missed and I am sorry if I miss any that I could have contributed to. Please know that you are all in my Heart, thoughts and prayers. All the very best to all of you.
I am not sure about how to copy The pain guy.. Usually I'm pretty techy so I'll see if I can focus through this stupid anxiety to help you out... 😳 I understand that costochronitis pain and I'm sorry that has been added to your life. I try to be positive and I'm a little (ok a whole lot)weird... I think I'm the only one the doctors in my area have seen laughing during full on all natural childbirth for 36 hours. 😜
Oregon, thank you so much for your offer to help me with the avitar. Also, thank you for your understanding about the Costochondritis. I went to the cardiologist and he checked me out and said that my heart was good. When they did the chest xrays and the ct scan, it confirmed what it was. I said to the doctor, how would I ever know if I was having a heart attack with all of the conditions I have that make my chest hurt?? (He basically said, I'd fall over... LMAO!!! Don't worry about being a little or even alot weird, we all have our quirkiness and hangups.... I, myself, have always said why be normal??? (Besides, what the hell is normal anyway???) If we can't laugh then what's the point. You're a good man, Oregon and it has been my pleasure to have gotten to know you. You're in my prayers.
Thank you so very much, FlappsyLady. I will check it out and see if that is how you do it. I may end up asking more than once because sometimes I figure out how to do something and then forget how I did it... (Fibro Fog..... As you unfortunately know all about). Tomorrow when I come back on and do my next pain entry, I will look back on this post and see if it works. Glad to get to talk to you. Thanks, as always, for the well wishes. You have truly been missed
Lmao Alwayz! 😂. I guess we only know each other by screen names but... Ummmm .... " I laughed through my labor" 😂. I'm female... Lol or weirder than I knew. Omg! Thank you, instant chuckles! Flappys thank you for your wishes too 😄. Night to my online friends, rest well and good mojo for tomorrow😴