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Near a giving up point right now.

Nov 10, 2015 4:04 PM

Hi everyone,
Have not been having a good weekend at all. Got sent to ER late Friday night and have been pretty miserable since then(incision rubbing, breaking open, draining, repeat the cycle, etc). This stuff that they told me was cellulitis is not looking like cellulitis at all anymore. Looking more and more like MRSA to me. Have an appointment with the gyn again to see what he can do with it. Hopefully, he can get it cleaned out already. I'm just really at the end of my rope with it. I keep asking myself, "Why me? What have I done so bad to deserve this already?" I'm not at the point of giving up on my faith, I've just had enough already. Going to see if care can be coordinated so I can get on IV antibiotics without having to be hospitalized for it. Appointment is at 9 am tomorrow. Hoping I can come home after.

Nov 10, 2015 5:22 PM

My prayers are with you. 🙏
Sending you gentle hugs and support .

Nov 10, 2015 5:56 PM

Oh my, so sorry for your misery. I know that we all who have faith have still had "why me" moments. Its humanity. God understands that our bodies are finite and we suffer fear, frustration, and lack of understanding sometimes. I hope your appointment tomorrow goes very well. Prayers for you to feel much better, very soon.🙏💕

Nov 10, 2015 6:50 PM

Hope you're appointment went well x

Nov 10, 2015 7:02 PM

Mary, it's not until Wednesday morning, but thank you. Just going to try to stuff the anxiety and fear that I'm feeling down, and then cry it out when it's over with. Right now, emotions are just too much for me.

Nov 10, 2015 8:01 PM

Amanda, hang on to us. We're praying you through this! 🙏🌼

Nov 11, 2015 12:07 AM

Flappys, sleep is darn near impossible tonight. Can't get relief if any position I try and can't even think about rolling over on my tummy. Nope, nope and nope.

Nov 11, 2015 12:28 AM

Look up your symptoms on the net . Don't take one persons word. Don't give up. go to a sexual health clinic even if it's not related those nurses have a lot more savvy then most doctor's, again, if that nurse fobs you. go to a family planning nurse, try lots of this these are all free nurse's to see

Nov 11, 2015 12:38 AM

I'm so sore. You're having such a hard time right now physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Not everyday has to be a good day and that's okay. Allow yourself to take care of yourself the best way you can with what you have now. 👍👍👍❤️❤️❤️

Nov 11, 2015 1:23 AM

At this point, I'm really going to push for a hospital admit. I feel totally craptastic right now. No fever, but headachy, different then normal body aches and incision pain out of this world. Greg, thank you for the concern, but I have a known history of MRSA, so that is why the extra care and precaution with this infection. Do NOT feel comfortable dealing with this at home any longer. I just wish they had kept me Friday night.

Nov 11, 2015 1:45 AM

If your body is telling you "ER, ER RIGHT THIS SECCOND" you gotta listen to it.

Nov 11, 2015 1:55 AM

It's good you know about MRSA. That's half the battle. But maybe bung on your symptoms a bit higher so they admit you. they do try to weasel out. and what Mixerholly said you know more. the bye

Nov 11, 2015 2:17 AM

Mixer, it was telling me ER, ER right this second earlier today. I'm actually going to do that. I just don't feel comfortable with it at all.

Nov 11, 2015 6:02 AM

Amanda, I hope they will too, for your sake. They shouldn't expect you to deal with it all at home with little to no sleep or pain relief. (((Hugs))) & a prayer they will admit you & it will clear up completely! 🙏🌼

Nov 11, 2015 8:14 AM

Nope, no admission. It's only a localized pocket of infection which is wonderful news. Maybe tonight I can sleep.

Nov 11, 2015 7:58 PM

That's very good! Praying you can catch up on some rest! 🙏🌼

Nov 11, 2015 8:41 PM

Keep the faith and we are rallying for you. Sending some zzz's your way 💤

Nov 11, 2015 9:58 PM

We are in your corner.
Sending gentle hugs, uplifting prayers, and peaceful sleep to you.

Nov 11, 2015 10:03 PM

We are all here for you and pulling for you. Sending gentle {{Hugs}} and positive vibes and prayers that you get some much needed rest.💕🙏🏻🌻😴

Nov 12, 2015 7:33 AM

Alwayz, I don't even remember what it feels like to be normal anymore. I don't remember not having a day that I haven't had back pain. It's pretty damn depressing, but I guess it's my new normal.

Nov 12, 2015 8:12 AM

Unfortunately it is. Just know that you can still get joy and fun out of life, it's an adjustment. You can do it and I'm here and so is the rest of the pain family to help you through. You'll never walk alone as long as I'm here, and many others. Hang in there sweetie. {{{Hugs}}} and prayers. 💕🙏🏻🌻😊

Nov 15, 2015 4:39 AM

Wow..what an incredible community this is. Amanda, I hope you're doing better now.

Nov 15, 2015 5:11 AM

Prayers!! Hang In there

Nov 15, 2015 8:53 AM

I am praying for you!

Nov 15, 2015 9:32 AM

Susie, at this point, wound itself is closed, no longer red, but skin is taking it's sweet time to close over. And it looks like there is a healing ridge below it so that's definetly a good sign. Done with antibiotics as of yesterday.

Nov 15, 2015 10:04 AM

Amanda it is wonderful that you are nearing the end of your healing process.
Hopefully it will be over with soon. Sending prayers and hugs.

Nov 15, 2015 10:12 AM

Amanda so glad to hear that your healing is progressing and you have completed antibiotics. We are celebrating the small blessings and victories right along with you.

Sending you...
Peace ✌, Love 💚, Turtles 🐢, and Frogs 🐸
Gentle Hugs 🙅, A few extra Spoons, and Prayers 🙏

Nov 15, 2015 10:25 AM

Weezie, won't know if truly healed until Friday afternoon. Kind of anxious about it for some reason. Oh and yes, even though there was no evidence of endo on laparoscopy, he is still treating me as though I do have it. Really kind of stinks to be in this situation, cause to be honest, it feels like I have no control over it right now.
@Shiovan, the few extra spoons are appreciated today.

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