As some of you know I'm struggling with chemical sensitivity ever since the local airport contaminated the air by not processing the deicing fluid and just letting it decay in the fields. It was really bad for a week straight which killed my tolerance and now everything seems to bother me and I'm smelling things no one else does.
Anyways, work is tired of me complaining and asking for things to be done when it comes to air quality and scents so they want me to sign my medical records over to a third party company that will make all decisions on disability acommadations.
My problem is that chemical sensitivity is not widely recognized by western medicine and documentation from my naturopath is not acceptable.
How do I explain to my doctor that my reactions are real and can be highly debilitating without sounding like the crazy person that western medicine says I am?
How can I tell him that depending on the substance in reacting to the reactions can be anything from anger and rage, to severe fatigue only, to a headache only, to headaches and dizziness, to full body shutdown including thoughts of suicide? How do I explain that the airport is still making me sick even though most people only "caught a wiff" of it in the parking lot and I was choking on it in the parking lot and smelling it in the building for several hours? How do I explain that that "wiff" of chemicals 2 weeks ago is still causing issues, I'm on the up swing from that one but it's Tuesday now and I was reacting so bad that I wrote up my resignation and made a suicide plan on Friday (1.5 weeks after very mild exposure)?
The only reason I didn't do anything was because I knew it was from the exposure, and I am buying a teardrop holiday trailer so that I can get out of the city more often so I need the money. How do I explain that without getting locked up?
I know I'm not thinking clearly because I am still reacting to the exposure on july 27th, it's getting better but it's still there.
I'm very concerned that this company that uses western medicine only in its decisions will say that no accommodations are required, or that they'll go the other direction and say I cannot work near the airport which will lose me my job. If I don't sign the papers over the best I can hope for is no acommadation and they have the right to fire me if I don't sign, as per the union.
I'm so lost. Sorry for my long whiny post. I just feel so lost and I'm trying to figure things out and how I can manipulate this to go the way I need it to. I never seem to recover before the next airport caused exposure so my brain won't be attached properly until the issue is resolved by the airport but it's not looking like it ever will be and the company is too cheap to completely redo the hvac system so that the toxins will be completely removed before they enter the building, if that's even possible.
And I'm rambling again. Sorry.
Also sorry to everyone, I haven't been commenting like I should be but I'm just not in a good place and don't want to bring anyone down with me. I can't see the positive in anything right now.