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Nov 25, 2015 2:52 PM

Okay, so I had an appointment with my surgeon yesterday as most of you know.
Problem is, I got really super freaked out. I usually don't see my primary surgeon, as I prefer the female PA in the office. I have been through a hell of a lot of awfulness this year and even thinking about seeing him again, makes me quake in my shoes. He's a great surgeon, but I'm still have this fear of him because the only time I see him is at the edge of a scalpel. Any suggestions with trying to get over that fear other then forcing myself to make an appointment with him, cause that's not happening at the moment.

Nov 25, 2015 3:04 PM

Amanda see if the PA will be there with you for moral support or ask a family member to go with you for moral support. It's nothing to be ashamed of you have had a horrific year no one can blame you.

Nov 25, 2015 3:12 PM

Weezie, she was in there but just not close enough to me at that point. It really triggered something for me last night. Couldn't sleep and then when I finally got settled, not so much a nightmare but unpleasant kind of flashbacks.

Nov 28, 2015 9:08 PM

Amanda, I'm so sorry! It's hard enough dealing with our pain, but when an action triggers flashbacks of painful situations, it becomes even harder. I wouldn't push myself because that's only going to a added stress. When you do decide to go, take a friend with you. (((Hugs))) & prayers this great will passes soon! 🙏🌼

Nov 28, 2015 10:17 PM

@Flappys, too late. Have to make an appointment with him for this coming week. Not because I want too, but because their office policy is if seen in the ER, you have to see the MD that was on call for that night, and unfortunately for me, he was. Just going to have to bite the bullet and deal with it again.

Nov 29, 2015 12:33 AM

I'm sending you lots of hugs and prayers Amandamiddleton1234, I can definitely relate to what you are feeling and dealing with. Mine is caused from anxiety after a lifetime of sex u all abuse and rape but I still have a huge fear and major anxiety and severe panic attacks just thinking about being in the same room as a male Dr. Or male nurse. So I have talked about this with my Dr.s and they are amazing! !! They totally understood and after that they have made sure that I am completely comfortable at all times by having one of the female nurses or someone of my choice with me. This even includes my dentist. I would try talking with your Dr.s or surgeons about your fears and anxiety and I'm sure that they will be very understanding and help you in any way possible.

Nov 29, 2015 12:30 PM

Irish, I kind of have that same issue with certain male docs, because of my past issues with being raped. Sometimes I can be quite comfortable with it, other times NOPE. I always, always do better if I'm laying flat and they don't try to talk me through it. Completely ruins my concentration with it. The only time I've really had big issues is when I was having some pretty significant rectal bleeding last year. Had to go to the surgeons office and surprise!!!!!!! It didn't help matters that my surgeon didn't tell me what he was going to do. I just kind of sensed it already before it even happened, and just went out of my body with it.

Nov 30, 2015 9:16 PM

@Irish, guess the issue is being pushed upon me. Got a call back from the surgeons office this morning and you guessed it, not getting my choice on this one. I'm going to tell them that there needs to be a female in the room at all times. They really don't need to know why, I just need to verbalize it already and stop being so quiet on that stuff already. My mom always says to me, "You've got a mouth and a voice, use it already!!!!!!!"

Dec 01, 2015 7:17 AM

Amanda I understand how hard it is but I think it might be if at all possible time to at least try to find a different possibly female doc. I know how hard it is to change docs they always seem to give me that look you know the drug seeker look. I hate that gut if it is as hard as you are saying to see him it might be time. The way I feel about it is if you are not completely comfortable with your docs it is time to move on. Just my 2 cents hope it helps and good luck.

Dec 01, 2015 12:26 PM

2tall, at this point, I really can't go anywhere else. There aren't any female surgeons around who take my insurance who also do the lap band. That's why I need to stay put for at least another 2 years.

Dec 01, 2015 12:30 PM

2tall, for me, it's just different in some way. It's not that I'm scared of him, it just seems like I've been on the wrong end of his scalpel too many times this year. And I automatically get nervous with it. Right now, doing IV antibiotics to stay far away from the knife already.

Dec 01, 2015 1:02 PM

Have you asked the doctor for an anxiety med to calm you down? I have some ending in "pam" can't remember the beginning to help that I only take in crisis beyond my normal anxiety meds which seems to often. Once you are in the anxiety flight or fight mode it is usually out of your control.

Dec 01, 2015 1:11 PM

Sham, no I don't. Going to the psych on the 9th so hopefully something can get adjusted then.
Did you mean lorazepam?

Dec 01, 2015 2:43 PM

Try and remember that the doc and staff work for you. You can request that you would like two in the room. If the doc knew what you struggle with he would be the first to suggest this.

Dec 01, 2015 7:49 PM

Amanda any drug that ends in pam works about the same they rotate me between Loranzapam and another one. It doesn't take away my anxiety but helps with the panic attacks. I like it because I don't take it everyday just as needed.

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