Hello there! I'm 35 years old and mother of three. I've been working only about 3 years in my entire life, because of my illnesses. I have many things but the worst are fibromyalgia and panic disorder- the pain is always on and panics effect for things I do or can't do. Last 9 months I've been without any life outside home. I haven't seen any of my own friends, only friends of my fiancé, I've been to market to buy food only 3-4 times within these months and I feel myself like some weirdo. There's no one person who has understanding for my illnesses, most of them think I'm acting because I want attention or an excuse. If they had to carry all the s*** for one day what I've been carrying on my shoulders my whole life, the times I just wanted to give up- fall asleep and never wake up again, they would realise that I have survived 'cos I chose not to give up. I don't pity myself never, I'm grateful of my awesome kids (also the reason to exist,
I could never leave them), of my fiancé 'cos he's the first person who lets me be me, small moments with them, the home we have, nature around us. I get happy with really small things and I love to play with words when talking with people by a way that makes them feel happy or laugh. I get good feeling if I see other people happy, or if I can somehow give help for those who need.
I'd love to hear your ways of coping with your pain and the reality that your body is older than its true age.
Thanks already just for existing, all my best wishes for all of you💖