Trigger warning, mild talk of rapists and murders.
Does anyone else experience really bad nightmares or night terrors. I've lived with them my whole life. Honestly, I know this sounds weird or sad, but I've never actually had a dream that was not a nightmare or night terror. I go days without sleeping because I'm afraid to go to sleep because I know I will enter my "dream world", and my family, and my partner, don't really understand. I've tried everything to make them stop. Funny or happy movies before bed, or upbeat music, or thinking happy thoughts. I even pray sometimes. I'm not sure religious but I would do anything to make them stop.
I try to explain it to people like this:
Going to sleep, knowing that you will enter into a night terror world, is like knowing deciding to go into a room full of murders and rapists, and people who have hurt you, and the things you fear most, knowing that you will be locked in there until someone or something (my body, for instince) decides to let you out. I try to wake myself up in my dreams by hitting things, or screaming, or trying to go to sleep in my dream, but instead of waking up in the real world, my mind tricks me and I "wake up" still in my dream. It's very very scary, and I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any advice on how to stop, or at least maybe lessen, my nightmares?