How can i live like this? I think about dying every day now. Ive thought that I can't kill myself becaise my kids would be devastated. Then i think the older 2 would be ok so i have to somehow find a way to live until my 15 year old graduates.
My pain management closed and ive been trying to find a dr that cares. I went to 1 jerk who weaned me off my patch and put me on oxy 40mg 2 times a day plus 10mg 3xday for breakthrough. 3 months later i went to a new doc who promised to help. She put me back on fent. Patch but at 25mcg instead of the 50mcg ive been on for over a year
I had a caudal injection yesterday. So far no help. I wake at noght in horrible pain.
Ive had severe depression and anxiety for 25 years and have tried every kind of med. Still here i am
Cannot go to the grocery store or my sons basketball games without tremendous anxiety.
This isnt what life is supposed to be like.
Please, please i need some help. Noone understands the pain im in. My husband doesnt ask me if i need anything or how i am. Its like hes immune to the depression amd pain. I feel so alone.