Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts today. I have shared before that my boss has crossed boundaries that I have not given her permission to cross. She continues to do that. She has waged an all out attack on me and campaign to force me out on disability. If I leave on disability it doesn't look so bad for her. Since I have returned to work from my last bout with a contagious illness that took me down for a few weeks she has been in my office everyday with one complaint or another that can't hold water. She complain I miss too many staff meetings because I am sick. Yet other staff miss because they take vacation and that's not a problem. I have requested FMLA papers. I have been told we don't have them.
I am told I am not a team player because I miss a meeting at the agency because I have to go outside the agency to be with a client in Court. She has accused me of saying things I have not said. I remind her time and time again that I am sick. That the stress she puts me under has a negative impact on me. She insist she is my biggest advocate, that I do a wonderful job, I always help out, I am a support to others. She doesn't mean to stress me BUT we need to push through. If that doesn't sound crazy I don't know what does. Lately she wants to prove me incompetent to do my job because of my medication. I should not be in the community. She decided that the company had to carry liability insurance on us and was hoping because of my health I was uninsurable. All was fine on my end. You can see the stress is tremdous as I have the only income and a child at home who I support.
I have been having chest pains, daily head aches, increased pain, thoughts of getting off this crazy evil roller coaster. And she professes to be a Christian woman.
I had a long talk with my PCP yesterday and filled her in on everything. She is keeping a close watch on me and I have to go back next week, she has added an anti depression medication and referral to a shrink.
Would you please pray for me today and tomorrow as I go in to work. When ever you can remember to think of me. My pain level is up now and I haven't even gone in. I need the strength of the community as well as My Lord first and for most.
I thank you in advance. I've been so overwhelmed it's been hard to get on here. I've not been able to do the things I've usually enjoyed doing... We all know that's a sign of depression. I admit it. Help me fight my way out. Bless you all for being here for me and everyone else in the community.