I'm at a loss what to do right now.
I know that the earthquake want that bad, it only lasted a few seconds.
So why am I so scared?
Every time an object moves, I flash back to a couple days ago.
I know most people have experience with more serious trauma than this.
Why is my head reliving just a few seconds.
Over and over again, until I'm shaking with fear.
It was only a few seconds long, why am I so scared?
Obviously it wasn't serious, just scary.
No one died, no buildings fell.
Then where is this fear coming from?
I feel like it could happen again, and yeah, am earthquake could happen at any moment.
It would be random.
So why I'd the fear so strong.
I've been totally nauseous.
My sis just got home, and I love the song heaven.
"Remember remember all we fight for. ..."
It's calming me down a bit to have her here.
I'm just trying to breathe.
Is this PTSD?
I really want to get a dog, I feel so much better just having anyone around.
Even a pet makes it easier.
We are still cleaning out our house.
What can I do?
Just try to stay near people?
Just go with it?
I'm so tired, and at night I sometimes hear the air conditioner and wonder if another earthquake is about to hit.
It was weird, the light in my room turned on (right before the shaking), then I jerked upright as the light turned off and the shaking slammed into my senses.
It's ironic, when everything shook the shelves looked like the colors for the local football team.
Am I just too young to calm down, or is this going to be of term?
My family is planning on getting a dog once our house is organized.
I don't know what to do.