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Oct 29, 2015 12:33 AM

Hello all.. Finally getting to a resting place. I'm there weeks post op and found out my aunt died. On Saturday. So I went with my sister to her wake and then tagged along with her and my cousin to my uncles house. Let me tell u
I'm in pain and exhausted. Smiling and trying to keep up with everyone not to mention blocking direct hug attacks towards my stomach I'm wiped out.

Oct 29, 2015 12:43 AM

That sounds so stressful! I hope you get some good sleep. Gentle (((hugs))).

Oct 29, 2015 12:45 AM

Yes..crankypants..it was.. Over 30 min drive to the country with fibromayalgia Lupus and being post op. However I choice to go. But now I'm rethinking going to the funeral . because if today was hard tomorrow is gonna be awful.

Oct 29, 2015 12:47 AM

It sounds like it might be best for you to stay home and recuperate. Take care!

Oct 29, 2015 1:00 AM

It sounds like it was important for you to be at this aunts service. How will you feel if you don't go to the funeral? Those feelings can affect your pain and outlook too. I don't know you but maybe this is one time you need to be brutally honest out of respect for the one you love. When I say this, I am not saying you are disrespecting her by not being there. But maybe you would feel that way. Do what's best for you to make you feel you honored your aunt to the extent you feel you need to. Do what you have to, to make others allow you to do that. Best wishes

Oct 29, 2015 1:02 AM

So sorry for your loss. Be honest with people and tell them gentle hugs my body hurts. God bless y'all

Oct 29, 2015 7:15 AM

Newfibrogirl, I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your Aunt. I am glad you were able to get to the wake but I sure understand what you are saying about trying to block off direct hugs and protecting your body. I hope that you are able to get some rest and relief from the exhaustion and pain from the trip. Hang in there. Sending you gentle {{{Hugs}}} and prayers 💕🙏🏻🌻

Oct 29, 2015 10:44 AM

Newfibrogirl, I am sorry to hear about the loss of your Aunt. Know you will be in my prayers and I am sending soft hugs your way! 🙏😘💕

Oct 29, 2015 11:54 AM

Newfibrogirl, I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for comfort for you and a speedy recovery from the stress and pain you are in. Blessings ✌️💜

Oct 30, 2015 12:58 AM

Newfibrogirl, I'm so sorry for the loss of your aunt. I'm glad you were able to go the the wake. I missed my uncle's funeral because I was too sick to be around others. My aunt asked me not to come, and I feel awful that I couldn't be there for her and my cousins.

I hope you're able to rest up and your pain subsides. Praying for a quick recovery from the procedure! (((Hugs))) 🙏🌼

Oct 31, 2015 5:31 AM

Sorry for your loss, hope rest comes to you and yours moshell

Oct 31, 2015 3:18 PM

Thanks everyone.. I actually did end up making it to a funeral actually I do wish in some ways I didn't go only because of how I'm paying for it now however the pain that I'm in now is nothing like the pain that my uncle is in from the loss of his wife yes it was my aunt that died but it was my mother's brother's wife either way you still might like to see you still my family and my uncle is also I'm very ill wheelchair-bound so I had to be there for him sometimes of pain has to be pushed to the side and over to care for the ones that they truly do love the funeral ended up being a 3 church service funeral so yes we went to three churches one church for the funeral service itself because there were too many people a third church for the burial and I mean a second church for the burial and then the third church for the repast the funeral in all total took 6 hours I think all in all it was still a good time being with family member missing and most importantly being there for my family it was definitely a long day and I'm definitely paying for it now extremely tired week so I still angry from feeling so bad and not having to field questions from my family at home as to why I'm so tired and why I'm this and why I'm that but that seems to be par for the course these days but thank you very much for everyone's condolences thank you for responding and thank you for being an awesome support group I'm very thankful to God that He has placed to the creators of this site and that he died this year for me I appreciate everything that you say and do all your voice all your kind words even the post of jokes and just random this I remember the days when I used to be very random and very upbeat and can very energetic miss my life

Oct 31, 2015 8:15 PM

Hi newfibrogirl,

I am glad you made it to the funeral but I was worried at how you may have taken my words. I was trying to be compassionate and kind and when I reread my post, it seemed sort of harsh. I hope I didn't upset you. I thought you had very good reasons not to go and no one would have had a right to judge you for it. I just was suggesting how you would feel if you didn't even with pain. That is what I meant to say in kind words but I am sorry if I goofed up. I would never want to make any one feel bad especially about such a matter. Best wishes and I am glad that it made you feel good to help your Uncle.

Oct 31, 2015 8:25 PM

@Profiler... Have no worries. I was not offended at all by your words. In fact I heard a d understood what your were trying to say. Actually what u said was exactly the what I was thinking while making my decision. One thing going through this pain season has and is teaching me is I have to first care for me. And I did in a way care for me first. And once I arrived to each location I made sure I did not over it. Actually once my other aunts and uncles saw me. They treated me like I wad ade of glass. First being shocked I was even there and the. Being a little short with me for putting myself through that. So I was quickly sat down out of harms way and had things brought to me. So again please don't worry about me. U did not offend me. I was very thankful for your words and I did feel the love and concern for my situation.
Big hugs profiler ...thank you

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