I feel like a horrible person for even saying this, but I hold some resentment towards my mom since she has RA and now I do too. There is a strong genetic component and my RA is a lot like hers. I feel like ever since I started struggling with RA (<1 year ago) I am less close with her. We used to be best friends but now it is hard to spend too much time with her. She is also really busy with her business so she is home a lot less (I am 20 and live with my parents).
I know that she didn't have ra before I was born so there is no way she could have a clue about passing it on.... But a part of me just is mad/sad/depressed/miserable and still holds it against her.
I have lost my life. I can't continue collage classes right now or do many of the activities that I used too. Am I a horrible person for feeling this way? Does anyone else have a similar experience?
Thanks in advance ❤️