Today has been a rough day and it's only half over. Woke up with bad pain in my hands, swelling/redness and they were and remain to be stiff.
It feels like I've been kicked in my ribs. My head is a full throb. I woke long enough to eat then laid back down. On a scale of 1-10 of being tired I'm a 10. I could sleep all day if given the chance.
I've been implementing what physical therapy told me. I work on something for a time then sit for 15 minutes. It's helped but I don't know how to properly channel my anxiety/stress so it doesn't affect me as much.
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety but haven't told anyone since I already have a list of "what's wrong with me." Plus I don't want anyone thinking I'm an unfit parent, it's not like I can control this.
Hi, you can't help it it's an illness. If you don't want to talk to friends or family you really should talk to your doctor about anti depressants. No one will think you are an unfit parent because you suffer from depression. I know this is going to sound annoying to you, because it used to to me, but research whatever your illness and look into lifestyle changes as you can't just rely on medication. Try and take 10 minutes a day for you. Write one thing every day that you are grateful for. All this may sound odd but trust me it will help you out of the rabbit hole. Research is definitely knowledge when it comes to illness but it is all trial and error. Take it day by day. You will get there. Good luck 🤞 x