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sending me to a specialist surgeon 😧😭

Apr 26, 2017 4:45 PM

Well sat my back started bothering me, not my normal lower back I mean yea it still hurt but there was a diff pain... Sunday still hurt so I started to rub it, I felt a lump that was 4 inches long thats where pain was centered it gets real tense in shit I been doubling up my muscle relaxers I explain him later.... So come Monday I new it wasn't right I called bump up my doc appt they got me in Tues.. Saw my regular pratitoner, not only did she use the word I hate they toss it around as if its like its a prize OH ITS JUST A FATTY TISSUE TUMOR... 😧😧😧😧WTF I HAVE HAD ONE IN MY NECK ATTACHED TO MY FUCKING SKULL THATS WHAT I BEEN HEARING ALL YEAR an a HALF NOW OH ITS NOTHING... IS IT THO??? IS JUST FINE HOW DO U KNOW DID U BIOPSY CHECK IT OUT, HAVE U SLICE SOME THING. IM PRONE TO CANCER IT RUNS N MY FAMILY I ALREADY HAD IT ONCE SO EXCUSE ME IF I AUTOMATICALLY GO TO D DAY CUZ I ALREADY BEEN THERE.... TWO MASSES... GOT THE CALL TODAY 3PM NEXT WEEK WED SURGEONS OFFICE... IM SO SCARED N TERRIFIED I REALLY DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO ALL THIS OVER AGAIN... I LOST 30 POUNDS N TWO N HALF WEEKS NOT FUCKING NORMAL BRO SOMETHINGS WRONG I WANT IT CHECKED NOW 😧😧😧😭😶..

Apr 26, 2017 9:28 PM

I hope everything is okay . Sending prayers your way.

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Apr 27, 2017 5:34 AM

Prayers for you MizzMonroe. Gentle hugs.

Apr 27, 2017 6:47 AM

I'm glad you're getting checked by a different doc. I'm sure you're scared. Prayers for you and the doc that he will be thorough and do the appropriate testing to find out exactly what's going on!❤️🙏

Apr 27, 2017 8:20 AM

Thanks just scared I keep lashing out at people not meaning too. Thank fully my Tree and pondy I have mybig thing right now I have mo body that can go with me... Tree works and is 3 hours away but he promised to check on me call metext me as much as he can... My family I. E. mom n dadjust leftsunday go back north hone in Wisconsin so I don't have family here... I am keeping out my head much as I can I just keep drawing drawing not even coloring it give me some thing do later, every so often I loosemy shit try decompose.. Like de ja vu only diff I'm in fl not wisconsin, and man I'm with cares just can't get here but do alllll he can for me from there... And back then that guy didn't fucking give shit... I feel bad to constantly be melting down saying shit butidk what to do.. 😭😧

Apr 27, 2017 2:27 PM

I understand honey!!!❤️

Apr 27, 2017 5:20 PM

((( hugs )))

Apr 28, 2017 10:15 AM

Good luck BIG HUGS! <3

Apr 29, 2017 8:02 PM

Hope you get it sorted let us know what you find out.

Good luck n big hugs.

Apr 29, 2017 8:41 PM

Sending hugs love & prayers for you MissMonroe! 🙂💕🙏🌼

Apr 30, 2017 8:40 AM

Thank u.. I have not been able eat again Im going on a week n half.. I eat when I can then I get little hungry most times I just feel sick.. I can't afford the nausea med its like 50 for 15 pills reaaalllly best gave a fucking cure and dinner with ut... I actually slep more this past week naps dozd out for hour or two etc that never ever happens so I'm just worried I know some things wrong...

Apr 30, 2017 8:58 AM

I understand your concern completely! My daughter had 2 lipomas removed from under her rib cage and I almost lost my mind... and I am in the medical field. Lipomas (fatty tissue) are scary. Especially if you have had previous health problems. We have family history of cancer also. I lost my mom to Colon Cancer 5 days after she turned 45! Then, I lost my grandfather (on other side of family-dad's) to Stomach/Colon Cancer. He was in his 60's. Dad called last week and said he just had partial intestines and Colon removed! Grandmother also died of lung cancer 2 years after grandfather passed. I understand completely the fears that you have. Never apologize for being concerned for your health! You are your best advocate, always remember that.

Apr 30, 2017 3:34 PM

Thank u my mom is making this situation in basically invalid said she refuses to give up like me I was like wtf I'm just tired I do kinda wanna give in I'm alone for this second time in my life I'm fucking scared... I didn't have a good biopsy when I had cancer first time I was so young didn't know shit everything happen so fast, I remember like 6 inch needles wide awake on a table there shoving needles n and put my fucking neck as I'm bawling and doc saif " its not that bad stop crying" 😮😮👿I was flooored I was like no u lay here no nothing and have this dine then we can talk... The one scares me most is in my neck and its attached to my skull... Thank you for understanding both my family sides grandparents died of cancer... Sending u some hugz n love thank u

Apr 30, 2017 4:39 PM

I'm so sorry that you don't have the support you need to get through this. Sounds like your mom needs to remember that you are never guaranteed tomorrow. Whatever her deal is at the moment, she needs to look past that and realize how lucky she is that you are alive. Once you're gone, you don't come back. All the unsaid love you's and hugs will never happen. I'm an only child and my mother raised me by herself. She was my best friend, my everything. I think you may want to have a calm and kind talk with her because you need support through this. Sending you prayers and kind thoughts!

May 01, 2017 4:12 AM

Thanks very much.. She supports me but diff she chooses not to hear that word cuz it gives it power and it be fine... So I let her do her thing.. I did tell her one day shen she got short with me over phone, I said u know one day u wish ud talked to me when I called worse yet I will 😧... So now she answers... I think it scares her cuz both my sets of grandparents passed from cancer of many things lung spine liver u name it.... Only truly a day away now.. Just trying breath .. I been napping a lot very odd for me.. Oh well.. Hugz

May 01, 2017 6:34 AM

(((( hugs )))) please let us know how it goes. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

May 01, 2017 6:35 AM

Thank you so much. Don't know what to do about this. I'm at a loss

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