There is so much "depressing unhappy pain" sharing I thought I would share something nice. On a side note It has taken years to get here.
So....Not to brag or anything just because I was reminded today that the simplest support is love.
It was lunch I forgot to fill my pill container. I was hungry and hurting and have to eat with my meds. I popped a piece of bread in the toaster and proceeded to dump my meds out on the table and start the process. I dropped, rechecked bottles and finally got it filled. My husband looked at me and says, "no wonder you are exhausted look what you have to go through just to take your meds" I said you know when I am grumpy dropping things and tired please remember this moment and know that I have a million of them each and every day. He said he knows and that is why he tries not to get grumpy and mad at me.
This was hours ago and it just hit me. I didn't kiss him at the time but as soon as he gets home I am thanking him with a big smooch included.
I am so busy hurting and having a hard time i need to see it as a reminder and proof he loves me and I need to remember that moment too for all the moments I don't think he gets me.