I was told to never have children because I am 18 and I was recently diagnosed with Sjogren's syndrome. I was completely fine up until this past summer. They think I also have lupus. My mom is disabled with lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia, three herniated disks, a different back problem, and a few other issues that I cannot really recall. She's had more surgeries than I can recall. She's been sick for almost as long as I can remember now. At this moment, she is in the hospital. I'm scared for her. And, selfishly, for myself. Being told to not have kids hurt me a lot. And I think I'm becoming depressed. My joints hurt too much to really exercise, and even though I'm eating healthy I am still gaining weight. I love my mom, but I am terrified of turning into her. I want to be a doctor, not see them. I don't even know why I'm posting this at this point. But I think I just needed to write it down.
Thanks for reading.