I have been having some additional complications lately that I'm not sure what they are about. I have suspicions but if anyone has similar experiences or input please let me know!
I have a bunch of stuff going on... I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia about a month and a half before I was in an accident (not my fault) where I got damage to my Achilles heel, and hit my head pretty damn hard. I bruised pretty much everything on the left side of my body. Then I was diagnosed with a (luckily) benign adanoma on my left adrenal gland and a "sizable" mass in my uterus.
I've been through PT and a year and a half of cognitive therapy, I'm doing PTSD therapy and I'm also working and going to school.
It's extremely hard having no energy and pain constantly. I've been stuck in the same intense fibromyalgia flare for over six months and it's near to maddening. The pain, the skin sensitivity, the exhaustion, the night time insomnia which leads to the inability to stay fully awake during the day... added to my mild traumatic brain injury, anxiety, Tourette's and severe depression... and then add working (supposed to be full time but I have yet to work a full week which terrifies me that I'll be fired)...and the self inflicted pressure to do well in school (it's my first time back in 21 years and I'm terrified I will fail).
I'm having a hard time de-stressing and meditation has become so hard I've given up. I can't seem to get my mind to quiet. There feels like I have 3 people inside of me now. The childhood me that I grew out of at 17 and took on my middle name, and then that middle name woman who I was for so long, and now there is this "new" person who is a mix of the two and trying to heal if that makes sense. Some days I feel like I'm going crazy!