Just had the biggest blow up with mom. Not all of you know the history with mom and I. But basically she had some sort of mental snap and was angry because I didn't eat lunch in the same room with her. So I went to try a d calm her and it just got bigger. It all came down to me being rude not opening up to here not appricate what she does. Blah blah. Then it went in on my health and what I'd don't do around the house . And then my dad came up cause he hears the crying and she snapped on him because he put mustard on his mashed potatoes. And then she is yelling at both of us. Dad is trying to defend me. Then she turns victim and dad leaves. Then some how I just lost it and told her that thst I go through my day trying to not upset her. She states she is jealous of my time I spent d on my phone jealous of my support group and she wants to eat and spend time with her family. Like we live here and its not realistic to spend every minute of the day with someone. And especially with her. My mom is very hard to be around.
Well then it really got bug when I told here thst I ha e days when I wish I had not woke up. She was so emersed in her own world she didn't hear it. She was still yelling. So I said it again. I told her well she can get all the peace she wants when I stop waking up. The. She heard it. Still trying to make it a victimization of herself. Which everything in my mom's would is about her. My illness is a reflection of her and is about her. I'm so done with trying to care for her while my body is declining daily. Living in this house is gonna kill me. I have to go.