I may be selfish but I'm so sick of people half listening to me and when I do express an issue I immediately hear how hard thing are for them. I'm.so tires of my pain and concerns being discounted and having to endure listening to non important and non relevant pains and comparison. All I really want is someone e to hear me and to help me through this. I aware of my family had any idea how often I think knofwaya to not have to wake up in pain. Or at all. I'm sure they would leave me alone..but then again maybe not I've never know my family to the selfish type til now. I've never spent this much time around them and with me being in a needy state. It's horrible. I go out in the community and people are all how sweet my mom is..i want to say. Bullshit if u only knew how we are treated at home.. ughhh... ok..I'm sorry but I'm just in a bad head space right now.