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Somebody please stop the train!

Mar 16, 2017 6:48 PM

My mother in law passed away early this morning, peacefully. We drove to tell one daughter in person. She headed out 5 minutes ahead of us from her work to home, very upset. We came around the curve and could tell by the number of cars there has been a wreck. We could see a mangled vehicle wrapped like a taco shell around a pecan tree, but couldn't tell what type or color it had been. I began crying and praying, "God please don't let it be our daughter" over and over while my hubby told me to close my eyes and not look. As we near he said, "it's not her," and I began praying, "Lord please don't let that person suffer!" A woman died on impact.😭

We spent a good bit of the day boarding dogs for a few days and contacting family. Then of youngest got my message to call home. Her company said she can come home for the funeral services (memorial Sunday, burial Monday) but she has to drop out of the classes and start all over in May; no job & no income & no place to live. We told her that her Grandma would want her to stay and finish her training, because she doesn't want a big fuss of a funeral. But she's hurting that she's not here with the family. And she's worried about me. 😒

We were headed to check on my dad, who is improving physically in rehab but deteriorating mentally & cognitively. My stepmom called to tell me that the fall she took 2 weeks ago following my dad's surgery fractured her kneecap, and she's to get an MRI plus a splint tomorrow. I had to tell my dad what happened because he thinks he did something to make her mad and steady away. He said, "Dean who?". "Your wife.". I told him she can't come see him because she needs to rest, or she could end up with surgery and rehab like him. He doesn't remember her falling. Every day before I leave him I write out notes of who his CNA sitter is for the night, and why she's there. I also wrote his children's & wife's names and phone numbers down and tacked to the board. He reads them but forgets within minutes. 😒

My hubby and I are walking around in numb zombie movements, barely functioning. 😢
Someone please stop this train before I wreck too!

Mar 16, 2017 6:57 PM

Flappyslady81- I am so sorry for your loss. I know life can get tangled up in knots in just moments. Try to remember to take care of you first. Then you will be able to work towards helping/guiding/listening/sharing/ love & be loved in this really difficult time. Keep talking to us & try to rest in between all of the tangles... prayers going up for you & the family πŸ™πŸΌ

Mar 16, 2017 7:21 PM

πŸ˜”I'm so sorry for you loss.
Please try to stay healthy your mother in law would not want you sick.
Unfortunately, the train will slow down before it stops. You're in my prayers .
You have my most heartfelt condolences.

Mar 16, 2017 8:11 PM

Sorry for your loss. Keep hope in your life

Mar 16, 2017 8:13 PM

My goodness I'm so sorry for ur losses, sending comfort and warmth and love your way.

Mar 16, 2017 9:20 PM

FlappysLady81
Sending you all my love and hugs. We will talk soon. It has been a little wild around here too. However, I will take the train for a little while. Love you.

Mar 16, 2017 10:50 PM

I'm sorry for your loss.

Mar 16, 2017 11:28 PM

Hey 😊 I am sorry for your loss . Stay strong. You and your family is in my preyers.

Remember the train will come to an end and time will heal.

Mar 16, 2017 11:32 PM

I am also preying for the woman family who dies on impact. And your family πŸ’‹

Mar 17, 2017 4:06 AM

Flappy I'm sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself.

Mar 17, 2017 7:21 AM

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss and my thoughts, and my condolences to you and your family at this sad time.

You must take care of yourself or when you finally stop you will collapse in sickness and you will be no good to your family and they need your strength right now. So please do take care and look after you too x

Mar 17, 2017 10:09 AM

Oh Flappys I'm so so so sorry for your loss, there are just no words that will help but know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. My heart also goes out to the lady who died in the crash and her family who are also in my thoughts and prayers.
I'm glad your dad has improved physically and it may be the shock of the operation and the moves (and being doped up on meds in the middle) that may of caused the mental and cognitive deterioration, so hopefully he may start to improve now that he's been at this new facility for a while.

You and your husband need to try and take time for yourselves before you both crash and end up ill, if you're struggling to sleep stop trying and just concentrate on relaxing your body and just rest, remember to eat if you don't eat it will make you feel worse and more lethargic and just take a minute or two every day just to sit down and let your worries out so you can try to think clearly and logically about them xx

Mar 17, 2017 10:53 AM

FlappsyπŸ’” I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad that she went peacefully but please accept my condolences.
I totally get why you panicked when you saw the accident. What a horrendous nightmare to deal with. I am glad that it was not your daughter but saddened because she was somebody's daughter. (I hope she didn't suffer).
What a shame that your step-mother cracked her kneecap. I hope that the splint does the trick and that she's healed and running around in no time.
I am so sorry about your Dad. I'm watching my Dad getting old and feeble and forgetting things and it's heartbreaking. He was always bigger than life to me.
I am sending you some healing {{{Hugs}}}, love and well wishes to you and your family. You won't wreck, you're a warrior like me!!πŸ’•πŸ˜

Mar 18, 2017 3:09 PM

Praying you find peace and comfort during this time. Rest your weary painfulness in the arms of the Saviour, lay your pain and sorrow at His feet and let Abba Father care for you, His child whom He loves so very much❀ My deepest condolences to you and your family ❀

Mar 18, 2017 6:20 PM

So sorry for your loss. Please be sure to take time our to take care of yourself at this time.

Mar 18, 2017 6:50 PM

I have to rewrite this whole post 😠 but I wanted to say, sorry for your loss. When my Grandma died I wasn't ALLOWED to grieve and started failing school miserably. Theres a policy for every school for excuse for funerals. Never refuse anyone a chance to grieve. I would look into it, but the school can't forse her to quit and has to give her all assignments.

Mar 19, 2017 12:51 AM

(((( hugs )))) I am so sorry sweetie. I wish there was something I could do to help. You and your loved ones remain in my thoughts and prayers.

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