It's unbelievably hard when you can't talk about emotional pain with the person that caused it because they aren't in the right frame of mind. You are powerless to defend yourself and know that retaliating would only cause the deepest of regret. And so you say nothing and push the pain down because you still love them. The emotional stress simmers into physical pain and takes a vicious toll on the mind. Hope and motivation dwindle in the face of their negative influence and you are trapped in the endless cycle of weary forgiveness. If only they knew how much energy this takes. The sadness lingers for weeks and meanwhile you try to once more find the memory of fleeting happiness.
Thank you for your comment. I really appreciate it. I might have confused everyone by using the word 'you' to describe my feelings instead of the word 'I'. To be honest it was three in the morning and that is the way it poured out.