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Stress, Flares, and Losing Myself....

May 28, 2016 5:43 PM

I just feel really exhausted right now. It's the end of the year, and my final project presentation (for morning classes at least) is next week. I'm still fighting allergies and a sinus infection and been running to the bathroom every 15 minutes or so to cough and spit. Haven't yet rested, haven't watched my favorite show to relax in about a week. But I just keep pushing.

I honestly feel stupid. My foot is flaring again from stress, but I keep moving, keep fighting the pain. But I hate my music right now, I'm having writer's block while I feel words just trying to get out, but then when I try to write I feel...empty. I feel washed out, like I don't have an opinion, I'm just doing everything robotically.

After 10 days of antibiotics, I usually feel better. Except right now I won't sleep enough. I haven't missed a single class in the last week, even when I got dusted (I'm allergic to dust, my throat closes up, instant migraine, almost passing out) during group work. I still finished that day.

I don't know. What am I doing? Who am I? I want to love art --- the making, the doing, the experiencing. But I'm just hurting.

May 28, 2016 6:15 PM

Ferretbandit, it sounds like you need to rest and do nothing for awhile. Watch your show and relax. You may be pushing yourself too hard. Rest then try again, rest some more & try some more... Hugs & prayers! 🙂💕🙏🌼

Jun 02, 2016 5:16 AM

Ferritbandit I think you might be running on empty. Take some time out to rest and relax. You won't be doing your best work burning yourself and getting too frazzled 😉 it's ok to stop and recharge

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