So I had the 2nd part of testing done this morning(ultrasound). Very intense discomfort and have been most of the day. I'm just laying here, thinking, listening to Casting Crowns and trying not to cry right now. Got so many things going through my brain at this point. My first question is why can't I get a break already? I thought I had gotten over the worst of the mrsa flare up already but apparently not. Got two spots that have started to get ugly again, in the midst of whatever is going on with my belly. Have already sent in a message to the surgeons office for an appointment this coming week. Some of the time I feel so very alone with this stuff. My family says they understand but they truly don't. They don't understand what it's like to actually be in fear prior to going to the doctors office. Like 24 hours prior to an appointment, I start with what almost seems like a panic attack. Just trying to decompress a bit I guess and trying to distract myself.