I have mentioned before that my daughter is special needs. (ADD/ADHD/SPD) She is also experienced a lot of loss in her short life. She started kindergarten this fall and has had a tough time. Typically she has three bad days and two OK days at school every week.
Monday was an ok day. But Tuesday she was refusing to participate and crawling around on the classroom floor. When the teacher corrected her she threw a book at her which worked the whole class up and got them nearly rioting. The poor teacher looked ready to cry at pick up. Then Wednesday she and her best friend got into a fight before school and ended up written up for it because it became physical and they refused to stop.
These are the first time I have seen her be physical like this at school. I'm worried. She is very smart and wants to learn but just can't seem to control herself at all. I am working with the school and school counselor as well as the youth services in our area. We have a counselor from YSB that meets with us weekly in our home and visits my daughter at school weekly. So I feel frustrated that we are seeing things being worse and not better.
The worse my daughters day is the more worried I become. The stress of it is making me hurt all over. I woke up this morning with a crazy itchy rash all over my face. My back is killing me. My feet and fingers have that annoying pins and needless sensation. My head is hurting so bad that I am nauseated. My chest hurts from worry. My hips ache. I didn't sleep well and kept waking up soaking wet in a cold sweat. And my IBS is acting up and I have barely eaten all week.
I am exhausted. By the time I pick my daughter up from school I am barely rested. The house is still a mess. I forgot to take anything out for dinner. And there are four loads of laundry that need done and the to be folded.
Again, my daughter is smart. She knows when I don't have the energy to fight her. And of course being a kid she takes advantage. So I know I need to get it together. But I just feel so frustrated and I hurt so bad today that it's hard to find the motivation.