Sorry to be such a debbie downer today but i am having a bad pain day and even after meds all i want to do is call my husband and tell him to come home and help me but after his recent comments i feel like i cant. My kids are pushing my buttons and with the pain i am snapping more. I have been think a lot about just ending it all which i know isn't what i really want i just want the pain to go away. I went to the hospital the other day in agony and with a large red mark on my leg. They refused to do any scans and just pumped me full of the same meds i have already and sent me home like they always do. And this was after my husband told them i had been thinking about suicide. I just want to go to bed and never leave. If i want to get an mri i have to pay for it myself and it is very expensive especially since i don't work. Being in a wheelchair it is kind of hard. I feel like i am banging my head against the wall.