I haven't had real sleep for a week. Between pain, pain meds, PTSD, fibro flare, and stress from my husband- I really feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. Please someone talk to me. I'm so tired and my stress level is thru the fricken roof. My husband is able to sleep thru pain and escape stress... and leave me alone all night. I'm so lonely and in so much physical and emotional pain! I let him sleep at night even though I'm struggling bc he works to provide for both of us. But on Saturdays he wakes me up at the ass-crack of dawn and expects me to do these "emergency" home repairs. I work on and in the house all week long as best as I can. I just... I do not understand why he ALWAYS has to wake me SO early? I don't understand why whatever project can't wait a couple of hours? I HATE IT! Tonight while I'm crying and pitching a fit bc of all this- HE FELL ASLEEP! Like, what the HELL?
I'm sorry for the swearing but I need help.