I'm in so much pain with my neck and back and my body feels so heavy like if takes so much effort to get up and make a cup of tea. I try and sleep every chance I get but I'm always e haunted. My Mum isn't well and I do EVERYTHING for her. I work full time and I'm constantly chasing round after her needs. I started up one of my hobbies lately and I'm trying to do that to have something in my life that makes me happy again but it is hard to keep going. Any time I can't do something for my Mum I'm made to feel guilty. She doesn't care at all that I'm am not well myself even if I am in bed all day in agony of she needs anything she would expect me to get up and go out for her before she would even consider doing anything herself. I'm not allowed to be sick, I'm not allowed to say no, I'm not allowed a break me I feel really close to losing it with her. My whole life has been put on hold for her I spend all my time with her as I hate her being alone and my other siblings don't bother with her because they can't be bothered with her being sick all the time. She really doesn't appreciate a thing I do for her and I just feel so angry. Everything is just expected from me and to be honest I think she makes my illness worse as I'm always so stressed. I love her but I feel like she doesn't care about me at all.