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To The Girl In My Head

Dec 12, 2015 1:58 AM

It's normal they said,
After traumatic events to have this little girl in my head.

It's normal she says
For me to take your sadness and pain

You know those heavy black walls
That you run at in vain?
I put those there.
Don't take them away!

I keep you safe she says,
from better left forgotten days
When you can't do it, I'll take the strain.

I'm sorry that I'm here she says,
I wish you didn't need me she cries
I'm only a little girl.

I will take your burdens
She promises me safe at night, I will be
From the demons that haunt the the shadowed corners of your mind.

Forgive me Rosie for this burden you bear,
For me forcing you to stay little and suffer for my care
I see you Rosie, and things that you've done, for the the images I've been spared and the memories I've won
You've always been there Rosie, since the time I was 5, being my mini me and helping me survive

Thank you dear Rosie for being the girl in my head.

Dec 12, 2015 1:27 PM

Hey BirdieBabe, Thanks for sharing. Do you write a lot of poetry? I have on and off over the years but I have definitely written more for myself since my recent diagnosis as it helps me channel the emotional effects of Fibromyalgia :)

Dec 12, 2015 8:20 PM

I don't tend to write a lot of poetry because I get frustrated that I can't get the words to flow properly but when I'm feeling really bad or really need that emotion expelled it does help a little. Especially having a judgement free place like this it makes it easier to not worry about how it sounds after I've written it :)

Dec 13, 2015 2:16 PM

Birdiebabe, that was absolutely beautifully written. I'm sorry that you are under such emotional and physical strain. It's never easy and unfortunately, what we have is what we have. It's not going to get better but we learn to live with it. Personally, I don't think anyone should ever have to learn to live with anything like this. There should be no pain, no suffering. But, unfortunately there is. Your pain family is here, always standing by to hold your hand, give you a shoulder to cry on or to hold you when you need support. It saddens me how many people here suffer daily with pain, anxiety, depression and have to make these things fit into our routines of daily life. Maybe that's the problem. We can't get into a specific routine because we never know from one day to the next how we are going to feel. I'm glad you know and feel secure that there are never any judgements here, only love and understanding. So, here's my hand (I used Purell so you don't get my cold... LOL!) I'm here to walk you through this. I'm sending you gentle {{{Hugs}}} and prayers that things settle a bit for you and that tomorrow brings you a more peaceful and less painful day. 💕🙏🏻🌻

Dec 14, 2015 12:47 AM

Alwayz, your name fits you very well. I really don't know how you do it. I wish that I was able to give as much encouragement and love as you share in this community. You always seem to be able to make me cry and smile with the same sentence, you always have kind words and great insight to share and best of all, you're always there on the hardest of days and seem to leave a comment just when I need it most. So yes, I will take your hand Purelled or not and hold on tight and hope that I can offer you as much support as you have already given me 💙💜💚💛

Dec 14, 2015 10:31 AM

Birdiebabe, as long as I can help the people of this wonderful pain family along, that is what matters to me. I guess I can offer the encouragement that I do is because, like all of us here, I understand the struggle. I never want to hear that people I care about feel alone. As long as I am on this earth, I will do whatever I personally can to hold each and every one of you and walk beside you through the hardest of times and stand beside you to celebrate the good ones. You run out of rope, hang onto mine, you need a hand to hold, it's there, a shoulder to cry on, I have two, a heart to share love, anytime. I'm glad that I've been able to help you. I do it for no other reason than I care deeply about my pain family. You have offered me support when I've had bad days and it has meant just as much to me. So, I'm glad you're holding my hand (if you catch my cold, I'm sorry..LOL!) But you hold on until you feel like you don't need to any more. It's always there. Sending lots of love, gentle {{{Hugs}}} and prayers that today has brought some peace to your soul and less pain to your body. 💕🙏🏻🌻

Dec 14, 2015 6:37 PM

You really are a beautiful person, I'm wishing you a pain free day and deep restful sleep 😙😪

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