Hi all... I'm fairly new here. I haven't written my own post yet... But... Today is the day. I need to vent... Maybe get some insight from others???
I've been living with chronic back pain, fibro, IBS, and migraines for what seems like forever. For the last 7 years I have managed to push myself to keep working. A couple months ago I turned in FMLA paperwork to my job for protection. I've gone from a type A personality to a shadow of my former self. It's been a long, painful, and exhausting journey. 10 years ago, I was the type of employee that barely called out of work... If I called out 3 times a year, it was a lot!!! Now??? 3 times a month is my average. :(
A couple months ago I had a conversation with my brother. He was advising me to apply for SSDI... I told him that I can't... I have to work... I have a mortgage... Bills... Kids and our disabled mother depending on me and my income to survive. He said... You're going to cripple yourself... I shrugged my shoulders and said... I just don't know what to do. Well... Today... The choice was made for me... Actually... A week ago today. Lifting a 50lb bag of onions at work, I damaged my back more. I didn't know I had until the next day when I was in more pain than normal.... Still, I just thought I strained it. So I do what I always do, rest and heat. Normally that works... I go back to my normal pain level and return to work. Not this time. I went to see my pain doctor who wouldn't touch me until I reported the incident to my job. So that is what I did today.