Hi all..first let me start by updating u all on my surgery. It's week two and I'm healing well. Pain is still 9 to 10 and very rarely less then 5 ever. But doctor is pleased with progress.
Now as far as turning the corner. I've been thinking on and praying on all the advice and tips I've gotten from this group since I've been here. And I'm becoming to be more comfortable with my NOs if I'm not feeling well or just plain don't want to do something. I say no or give an expression that denotes my heart on the matter. I tend to still get the same response of "well u don't do anything else , how hard is it for u to fix my TV again. "Or "How hard is it to show me again how to use this device..".... I may end up doing those task at a later time.but I no longer feel compelled to inconvenience myself more by jumping to others will... And I think by doing this ..by useing my NOs. It's getting through to the people that "hey/if I'm gonna keep breaking this TV I might need to learn to fix it myself." ..lol...of course u all know if things were normal I would have more patience. But now especially with me healing from surgery I just really don't have it in me to do any extra. My mom has really seemed to come around for now..she is doing the cooking now and even offering to bring me my plate. Although I try to get up and do as much as I can on my own. But it seems for now .I'm gonna be able to get some well needed rest. So I'm thankful to GOD that I'm able to stick go my guns and that I have the ability to come here and vent without judgment. I'm not sure what all is gonna happen with this whole process but I feel for the first time in a long time I may be able to look ahead to think of a future for myself.
Also..on the mom note...she also admitted to me that now thstbim really down and not able to do what I once did. The things she said was not enough . she was able to admit today that the work I did around the home and for the home was a big part of her day. Now that she has to literally do it all plus help me get around she can now see how me cooking and shopping and planing meals and meal prep for a family of five was a major job. And all that while being in constant pain.. So I'm thankful for her eyes being open to that.
Wow I've written a novel this post.. Thank you for you time and sorry for babbling on...have a great day and night group.
Here's to a pain free u..