My dad has this bad habit of getting on my case if I miss church because of my Scoliosis. I admit that I missed it this morning (technically yesterday morning) because of the pain, also being the second Sunday I've missed in a row. When he realized I hadn't gone, he asked why. I told him it was because my back was hurting badly. He then immediately said "Your back hurts every Sunday. You've got choir, and they count on you to be there." Not wanting to start another fight over the issue, I just said "I know." However, I was hurt by what he had said, what he was implying. I've heard it a thousand times, but I can never seem to brush it off like I do other things. What I really want to say is that I hurt everyday. 24/7, 365. I'm just tired of him acting as if I use my disability as an excuse for not going to church, and like I am somehow immoral for that. The implication that I am immoral for having a disability, and that I only use it as an excuse and nothing more. The implication that there's no real pain. That hurts. That really hurts. I love going to church, and I feel like crap every time I miss it. Truly, I do. I feel bad whenever I miss choir, it's one of my favorite things. I try my best to make it every week. But sometimes the pain is a little more than I can handle, so I don't go. And every time I miss, my dad acts as if I'm falling away from the church and God. If I dare say anything in my defense though, he puts me down even more. I love him, but it hurts when he says those things. I apologize for the long post, I'm just tired of medical problems being turned into a moral issue.