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Virtual Contract... Who will sign?

Feb 17, 2016 12:07 PM

I know there are many days that the pain we experience is more than overwhelming. I know that the pill bottle that our pain meds come in seem to be our only friend. And our pillow and blanket is all we want to connect with. Some days it seems someone is whispering in our ear no one will miss you, it would be better if you let go. BUT, that is the biggest lie and it comes from the pit of hell. You are valuable! Your life does matter! You are not done on this earth until God says you are done!

I would like everyone to agree to sign a VIRTUAL CONTRACT FOR LIFE. No matter how discouraged, hopeless, tired, or overwhelmed you feel... You will never "let go". You will pick up the phone, or tablet, or computer mouse and contact someone and get help, talk until that thought passes. And if you have to keep calling or texting, or writing as many times as you need do it. AGREED?

Feb 17, 2016 12:35 PM

I'll sign up!

Feb 17, 2016 12:47 PM

I'm in! There are times when the bottom seems to drop out, but that when God & our pain family will carry us. 🙂🙏💕🌼

Feb 17, 2016 6:15 PM

I agree.
I've gone through that many days of the week, for over 15 years. Thank heaven for positive people like you who get me back on track.

Feb 17, 2016 6:23 PM

I hope I can get to the point I can say yes I would sign. I just spent my last session with my counselor saying I can't kill myself, tried that before and failed. I don't want to be more of a burden to my husband and young son. God help me if there was a magic shot that would put me to sleep and never wake up I would have already jabbed it in my leg.

Feb 17, 2016 7:55 PM

Shammagren, if we're all honest, there are times we've likely felt like that. Just stick with us and we will help each other through. Hugs! 🙂🙏💕🌼

Feb 17, 2016 8:19 PM

That feeling will happen but like all feelings it will pass, and even if it's just for a second it's worth it, because then you know that the next second of feeling better will happen and be just as sweet. Last November I celebrated a year with out suicide or self harm so I got a semicolon heart tattoo over the scars on my wrist to remind myself that bad feelings happen but they go away and it's not worth it.

Feb 17, 2016 8:49 PM

Thank you flappy! Disturbed, I understand after a failed hanging attempt I drove my small car into a very large tree. I never thought that feeling would creep back. I have the semi colon on my Facebook profile. I have a black Rose tattoo (the sign of death) on my shoulder. Back in my day (I'm old) there was not a semi colon project so that was my "death to the past" "live for the future" statement. I am in counseling so I do have that. Even my counselor looked like she was going to cry my last visit. I see her every week and I am rarely left alone so I am watched most of the time. I could never have my son find me so that takes care of the rest of the time.

Feb 18, 2016 11:01 AM

Ok, I'm pretty old as well and maybe it's that or just the that I'm ignorant to the whole semicolon thing..... I do not know what the significance is. Yes we have all felt these ways at times and WOW, hats off to MySistersKeeper for being one of the people that brings tears to your eyes, in a good way, and gives you a reason for wanting to stay here on earth. For there are many reasons to stay. That comes from a single mom of three, 13 year old twin girls and a 9 year old boy, with no other family and hardly any friends at all. I mean who wants to be friends with someone like me/us. I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and could literally be fine one second and take a step the wrong way, which is actually the right way but my ligaments like to disagree a lot! Shammagren you brought me to tears in a different way. OMG! I have thought about it as we all have admittedly here. I could never consider trying it though PLEASE I beg you to promise us, NEVER AGAIN! You mentioned being a burden on your husband and son. I can PROMISE you it would be a much bigger burden on them if you were gone. My kids are the only reason I am still here! Maybe it's because I had terrible parents that didn't love me at all but The Only Reason That Keeps Me Alive are My Kids! Please consider this, if you were as much of a burden to your husband as you think, he would leave! Like my ex did. It was all too much for him to handle. So good, begone I said. Don't get me wrong, it's beyond difficult to do it all alone. Literally. I do it though. I suffer a lot. I hop on the scooter and once a month do grocery store because I will need 3 days to recover from that. So we eat lots of frozen meals that I prepare throughout month. My ex husband and I share custody of my twins and I miss them when it's time for them to be at their daddy's. My son is 100% full physical and full legal all mine! 💖😁 That boy is my heart. A mother/son bond is like nothing else. Except daughter/daddy bond. I'm super close to my twins as well but it's just a little different. Lol at it like this, someone said this to me one day. Step outside the situation and look in, imagine you died in a car accident due to a drunk driver. How would you feel about your death then. You brought that boy into this world, he's your responsibility until you've raised him to be self sufficient and by then he will want to take care of his mama. YOU ARE HIS WORLD! What gives you any more of a right to take your life than that drunk driver? Ya know, see what point that lady was trying to make by telling me that? Where my severe guilt lays is in the fact that this is a genetic condition, so all my kids have it. Since I didn't get diagnosed til my youngest was 7 I was left no choice except pray to God that they do not get it as severe as I have it. And since we know about it we will take all precautions! You are loved and not a burden! Trust in that. If for no one else in this world FOR YOUR SON! I KNOW ITS HARD BUT YOU ARE WORTH IT!

Feb 18, 2016 11:53 AM

EDSMoMo, wow! What a profound way to take a different view! I don't think I'll ever think about this again the same way. Hope you don't mind me shortening your name just a bit. My auto type doesn't recognize when numbers are at the beginning of in the middle. Lol Have a blessed day! 🙂💕🙏🌼

Feb 18, 2016 4:55 PM

I will sign

Feb 18, 2016 5:32 PM

Where do I sign? Virtual Pen is in my hand! Great idea! Accountability Group! Yay! Perfect timing! 💗🤓

Feb 18, 2016 5:39 PM

I will sign.

God has a purpose for each of us and until we have done gods work, here is where we stay. We are a huge support group for each other and we need to connect, its not complaining its venting and we need to do this to feel better. Just because we have pain doesn't mean we are a burden it just means we hurt and need to connect and need support. Sammgrem you would be surprised at how many people in your life depend on you, yes depend on you and love you very much, they would be crushed without you in their lives. Please connect I promise that you will feel better about yourself. It has worked for me. Hugs

Feb 18, 2016 6:21 PM

It's interesting that u post this up today. I've actually been in this spot recently. And with the events of the last day I've been thinking about not being here..I toy with the idea often. Which is one reason my boyfriend arranged out get away
And I'll admit I've been looking and reading this post for the last few hours debating if I would or wouldn't sign it.. Because what I feely life is about to go into is horrifing. Don't know if I want to endure it..

Yes....I'll sign...

Feb 18, 2016 6:39 PM

I can't sign, but I will make a promise to not just give up without fighting or trying. But I refuse to be forsworn, just in case. I hope no one is disappointed with me. Hugs?

Feb 18, 2016 7:51 PM

Phoenixrising, you do what you feel you need to. At one point in my past I wouldn't have signed either. But the door is always open if/when you want to change your mind. Know that we are still here for you anytime. Hugs, love, & prayers! 🙂💕🙏🌼

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