I'm still here but have been in an atrocious relapse. I now have a home health care lady come in everyday. I've just about lost the use of my legs. I have to us my Walker just to get to the bathroom which is about 20 steps from the couch. The people who came to look at my apt, to figure out what size chair i needed, said she was scared for me to even walk the few steps to the bathroom with my walker. My legs shake uncontrollably now when I stand up. So,my friend comes in every morning and moves me from the bedroom to the living room and each night he reverses the procedure.I just lay on the couch, then lay in the bed.Even my neck muscles are losing the city to hold my head up.It just kinda flops to the right. I have been struggling to keep on my feet and not give in. I am falling into a deep depression due to this time of year. My birthday is April 18, my anniversary is April 26th & my son's birthday is May 7th and my husband passed away May 11th. 4 days after my son's birthday. It will be 8 years since I lost him and I miss him more and more each day. I wish he was here. I don't think my life would be so screwed up if he hadn't passed away. You may not hear much from me the next couple of months but I am here and I do check in to see how everyone's doing. God bless you all.