Yesterday I missed my nephews birthday 🎉 and today I feel worse. I try to keep my pain to myself the best I can. I don't want anyone to think 💭 I'm using my fibromyalgia as a excuse for anything, including feeling sorry 😐 for me. But my husband can always tell just by 👂 hearing the way I'm breathing. I worry him so much and I don't like him to go to work wondering if 🙂 okay.
I'm so sick of my pain and the many other symptoms I have to deal with everyday. I'm tired 😴 of the way my husband worries about me and I'm also tired of the way people look at me when I bring my pain up. I'm a strong 💪🏻 woman but sometimes I just want to scream and cry 😭 about it. I want to throw a tantrum and get it all out. But I can't because I care to much about what other people will think 💭 of me. I don't want to be seen as manipulative using my pain as a excuse to get attention or to get my way. I just wish I could be myself.