Is pain during the night worse than waking up & not being able to return to sleep? Or is it waking up every few hours, or not being able to sleep at all that's worse?
Many nights I wake up from pain and have to change positions, or to go to the bathroom every 2-3 hours from my overactive bladder. And I've had many "insomniac" nights of zero sleep. I feel tired from nights like that but can usually get through the day with a little more caffeine.
Nights like last night are my worst: I fell asleep just after 11:00 pm and woke about 2:00 am to go to the bathroom, then fell right back to sleep. Of course I had to change positions because my low back was hurting. Then I woke again at 4:10 am to go to the bathroom again. I got back into bed and closed my eyes to sleep, and BAM! I'm wide awake because my brain started ticking, the wheels started grinding, and suddenly I'm thinking of first my Dad, them my Mom, then each of my grandparents, all deceased. And among these thoughts are mostly the sad heartbreaking memories of my last memories of them (the last few days of their life, or planning and/or attending funerals). I'm laying there angry, thinking "why the heck can't I remember the good memories with as much clarity?" I wish I could say this was only last night, but I've had these exact memories jar me awake many nights over the years. And it definitely makes this type of night my worst! Not only do I feel exhausted but I feel upset & sad that my good memories are overshadowed and seem to have deserted me. I wonder is this because of brain fog, or age, or because of something else? I hate nights like last night...ugh! 😢😪. So, what makes you have a bad night?