Hi everyone, I've been a bit absent lately but I'm getting back on top again.
The main reason I've not been posting or replying lately is because I've been down, getting myself stressed and anxious about my rheumatology appointment which was on Tuesday plus in general I've been struggling a little.
Well I've had my rheumatology appointment now and then verdict is....
....The consultant has diagnosed me with fibromyalgia but to be honest I was expecting the dx but I wasn't expecting the dx on the first appointment, so was a little shocked at that.
I was also shocked when he said fibromyalgia is a psychological condition and I need to see a psychologist to talk through everything from childhood up to now to join the dots together to go through all the emotions so that it will clear/cure the fibromyalgia
He also said....which I wasn't expecting....that my knees have wear and tear and are starting to buckle under my weight, my left knee is particularly bad.
He wants me to have to have an ultrasound to see if I have Gaul stones as well because of the reflux I'm having even on 20mg of omoprazole a day with any other pain being masked by the morphine.
He also thinks that the morphine is also covering symptoms of IBS. Apparently I'm also on industrial amounts of my meds.
So ok it's taken me a while to try and process all this and it actually took someone to PM me on here with their concern for not seeing me around here lately and also reminding me that fibro is a very real condition, to get me back up and and out of my pity party!!! We're all allowed to have them but we also have to pull ourselves out of it and to do the best we can in moving forward for ourselves and our loved ones around us.
As many of you know I've come out of an abusive marriage then straight back into another abusive relationship and even tho I finished the last relationship 18 months ago my confidence and self-esteem and pretty much everything has been knocked down soo low and everything that comes with that but now I'm fighting back, I'm going to get my confidence and self-esteem back and with the help of my mental health nurse and the confidence therapy course I'm doing with the charity "Mind" are going to start with helping me get to a place where I'm going to be the best I can be and the happiest I can be.
I hope everyone else is have a pain free day and I'm sending love and hugs to help you all have a happy and blessed day/night xx