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Apr 23, 2017 8:09 PM

Today was an awful day. I thought I'd make it through without to much fuss but yeah ., Why would I think k that? It's always something. Storms stress and pain all day. Nerves being bothered feeling alone but pretending to be fine. All while feeling selfish because I've been very self focused last few weeks. Worries over my medication and there effectiveness. Sometimes wonder if it's just best to stop taking it all. Working so hard to keep moving but the more I move physically the more I hurt. So why bother to move.
Looking at the live of people I once new and see them smiling a d having fun living life's filled with joy. I miss those days those times where life was something looked forward to. Instead of now it being something I hide from.ive said one I'll say.it again what's the point I'm so over this. I need a hand up. Tired of being positive in the midst of overwhelmed saddnsnegitivitie. 🗯😠😠😠🗯😠

Apr 23, 2017 9:36 PM

I hear you lovely 😊 massive hugs to you! I feel the same. Your not alone. Xxxx

Apr 24, 2017 1:09 PM

I'm so sorry to hear you had a bad day. I have had this problem all my life. When I was a little girl I couldn't understand why everyone could behaving fun while playing soccer and all I could do was try to play the game without so much pain. I had many many years of this until I was diagnosed in my thirties. I'm now 60 and have had a full life of losing my parents when I was 12 and 20 then got married and had two ( beautiful boys ) then of corse had a divorce. Then I remarried and have had to spend the last 15 yrs (accepting) (lost my job) my limited life and letting my family know I'm not lazy and they have to (accept) that if they love me I can only do so much. I'm not wonder women and I need a little support on the days I can't do anything. They do tease me a lot but I try not to take it to heart (sometimes I cry) but I put my big girl patties on (lol they ate big) and (accept) this is me now and I still am a loving, caring, smart, beautiful woman and I also (do not feel) sorry for myself. When I stopped beating myself up about this, things got so much easier for me. Less stress. I don't like it at all but I will manage it the best way I can. I find my crazy cense of hourmore is what keeps me going. I'm always looking for funny thing to read or see. Hope you have a better day tomorrow. 🙃

Apr 29, 2017 7:18 PM

I can validate ur feelings ur not alone

Apr 29, 2017 8:42 PM

I so understand. Battling unknown condition for 16 months. Just told my husband that I wish I found joy in my old hobbies, like art and writing. The only time I feel truly at peace is when I'm praying. I love volunteering, but I never know what a day will bring, so it's hard to keep a schedule. I'm undependable, and that's hard to swallow for my personality type! I used to love yoga, but it just hurts now. Today I tried Tai Chi, and it felt good. I am also starting a blog with my brother, who suffers with acute, chronic pain and anxiety. I hope these new hobbies bring new joy, and that you will find your own happy activities.

Apr 29, 2017 8:43 PM

I can relate Newfibrogirl! Sending you hugs love and prayers for strength! 🙂💕🙏🌼

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