Im really disappointed with my appointment yesterday. I wasnt expecting some magical cure, but apparently I had some hope that I would get some help.
The specialist said to avoid triggers as much as possible, complete avoidance is impossible because most people use products I react to and I can't avoid society completely. He also gave me a note saying I need a scent free workplace, that won't happen but at least now they have a doctor saying it's real instead of hedging. I officially have a diagnosis on my chart, I don't remember what he called it after he listed off probably 6 or 7 names for chemical sensitivities.
He is putting in a referral to a neurologist since the headache is the first symptom and never truly goes away so he thinks there might be migraines too and the sensitivities are making it worse. And im supposed to do cognitive behavioral therapy to manage my reactions. I really don't know how that'll help the actual reaction but I guess worrying less about reacting will probably be helpful. So I'm waiting on a referral for that. But none of it helps me now and no answers on why I have rage attacks followed by suicidal thoughts with certain triggers.
Can i just give up now? Or is that the diesel fumes from the drive to work combined with peoples laundry products talking? I don't know how much longer I can do this, I feel like I'm going to break at any second.