So..I have fibromyalgia. Chronic fatigue. Endometrios. Scoliosis. Degenerative spine. Blown out both knees. 28 surgeries. Abusive marriage. Survived all that. Divorced. Got reality healthy. Was supporting my kids with no help from my dead beat ex. Built a great career and was working 70 hours a week. And then it happened. The stupidist freak accident. I have to do everything myself. Including yard work on Christmas Eve. I was trimming a tree with electric hedge trimmers when a friend walked up too close and too avoid hitting her I swung it back behind me right through my other hand. I'll never forget the sound of it thumping through my bones. I pretended it didn't happen. I had stuff to do. But the look on her face. I knew I was in trouble. The nerve pain was what I'll never forget. And the blood. And the chewed up bone fragments. And the other stuff. Don't even know what it was. Six hour surgery to reattach. Skin graphs. A pin stuck down one of my fingers like a shish ka bob to hold it on. Hundreds on stitches. I was on the transplant floor a week. Unfortunately, my doctor handled my case negligently to say the least. He was cruel and abusive and then refused treatment during the most crucial time in my rehab over an error in his office. Resulting in permanent damage to me. It's been over a year and my bone is not connected and bends every time it's touched and is grossly deformed and in horrible pain and at extreme risk for being severed. No other doctor will touch his mistake. I've lost the use of my hand. And even worse is the whole tragedy sent my fibro into a spiral. I'm practically bedridden. I've lost my business. I'm broke. I'm depressed. I sick. I'm in horrible pain. I'm in absolute misery. I don't even want to live anymore.