I get asked this question quite often from people that I know and that have known me for years. The question was, "Amanda, would you trade your life of chronic illness and pain with someone else?" When I first started out on this journey, the answer would have been YES in a heartbeat. I hated the chronic illness, pain and fatigue that I felt on a daily basis. Just recently, my thoughts and feelings began to change in a good way. After having gone through so much in the last couple of years, my answer now would be No, not in a million years would I trade. Firstly, because I don't want ANYBODY to have to deal with the chronicity of my illness and have to deal with the emotional and mental stuff that goes with it(anxiety, depression, etc). Secondly, I have been taught so much by going through this. First and foremost, faith. My faith has gotten me through some very bad and evil days, when nothing seemed to go right and I didn't know which way to turn. All I could do was just look up. The other things that I have been taught is that I have a mouth, and that I need to speak up, if something doesn't sound right. Trust me, I've had to do that many times this last year. Also, it has given me strength to keep fighting another day, and patience. I STILL need to work on that one cause I do get VERY impatient. I know this is getting to be long but there are more: perseverance, hope, and love.
Blessings to all. Have to go to an early appointment. Will check back in later today.